a lifetime of commitment
when I have a hard time
committing to myself first
there is a war going on in my mouth
after years of biting my tongue I bit it off
my mouth is full of my own blood
my tongue is bleeding and I keep swallowing
swallowing their demands and my lost voice
there is a war going on in my mouth
outside they only see my thick lips
in the shape of a closed smile
They told you that the ones
who smile with their mouths closed
have something to hide right?
Look at your life and think about if you are truly taking care of your own heart, thoughts, needs and wants. Do you have a hard time catching your own breath because you are running towards or away from something? Stop, put all the temporary stuff, the demands from the other and their threat of disappointment in the air and let the wind blow it all away. Keep yourself and breathe. Find that time, that space, that place where you are giving love to yourself without thinking of anything else in that moment but just me, myself and I. Yes, you have to hustle in this world hustle but be careful that this world is not taking too much away from you and not giving enough back.
Self love does not come
with a list of demands or deal breakers,
it is about feeding your soul with love
without caring about their big eyes
put all
that is temporary;
the demands
the outsiders
the threats
in the air
let the wind blow it all away
Keep yourself and breathe
How many hearts can you grow in this temporary life?
I’m gold with a flaw or two
After speaking to my best friends after midnight (for real have those conversation late at night) I understand that awareness is cute but emotional intelligence is the key.
Checking yourself, in terms of your thoughts, reactions, moves and then correcting yourself takes a lot of self power. Self correction only happens when you are brutally honest with your own flaws. Cause flaws in my opinion are the add on but the second these flaws get toxic something has to give. If your ”flaw” is messing with your mood, mental health, your relationships or even your money you need to understand they are not flaws they are self destructive qualities. Seriously, sometimes judging yourself from an stranger’s point of view without making any excuses is drastic but needed. So ask yourself some questions. Are these flaws toxic? Do these flaws hurt me and others? Am I just being petty? Would I accept these flaws in someone else?
To become better takes commitment. I am talking about the type of commitment where self love is a fact and is not based on certain conditions.
Are you ready to commit to yourself first?
let go of the doubts that this world has given you
when the blessings knock on your door
remember that you are worthy and they are only meant for you
when you prayed for the blessings, you opened yourself up
you surrendered your ego and bowed your head in submission
now when they knock, hold your head up and open that door
accept them because you are meant to be
There is a war going on in my mouth
Do not
desire me
mistake my allure
for magic
Want me
Come with a little bit of sincerity
no matter where my head takes me
you are here when I get back